Past

How much energy do we spend on wishing things were how they used to be, thinking that our best days may be behind us? Maybe if we’re too hung up on the past, we fail to live our lives to the fullest, right here, right now.

College

Okay, so I lied about updating everyday. Oh well.

Move-In Day
Friday started off bright and early at 5am as we loaded up the van in the pre-dawn light. We hit up Bob Evans on the way to SU and get to snowy Salisbury around 930am. Now I know that its possible to make the drive in 1hour and 59minutes, but we took our time. Salisbury was covered in about and inch of snow and a 1/4inch of ice, which made maneuvering around the parking lot and in front of the dorms quite interesting. lol. I check in with the RA and am shown to my sweltering hot-box that is my home for the next however many months. I do the whole unpacking thing while my mom cleans the bathrooms and kitchen, and my dad hooks up my computer. We eventually make our way to get my parking permit and then do the welcome ceremony and stuff, my mom says a tearful goodbye and they leave to go home. Everyone new in Chesapeake had to eat with the RAs at dinner, so we do that and I head back to my room and sleep through the other activities of the night.

Day 1
We all had to be in Maggs by something like 9am to do 2 hours of "team-building" activities. While it sounds gay and like a wast of time, it really wasn't that bad. Yea, it was kind of lame, but it was a good way to meet people and such. Variations of the "team-building" went on all day long and ended around 5 for dinner. Again, I didn't go to the activities that night and instead met my roommate and then went to sleep.

Day 2
Everyone came down today!!! First Paul arrived, followed by Caren and then Sarah and Brad. Helped them move in and stuff and then met my other 6 roommates who all seem nice. Got books and such and just did some hanging out.

Day 3
Today was the first day of classes...ugh. lol. Sociology at 8am is going to get old. We have to read some book for that class and do a paper on it. Chemistry is going to kick my butt, I'm already regretting taking that class, but I have to for my major. English is chill, my teacher brought in donuts for us all and we just sat and discussed the class. I had a short break and then went to history. That class should be okay, the teacher seems like a good guy. Chilled the rest of the day and then watched Finding Nemo!!! Best movie ever.

Day 4
Today I only had one class, my STARS Habitat class. Its going to be easy, I think we're going to have some fun in that class. lol. Today I started some Chem homework, but its just so time consuming that I lost focus and went to get food with Brad. I need to get that done, but I have to wait until I can get my books from the the neighbors.

So yea, that's been my life in a nutshell : )

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I'm nervous...really nervous.

Leaving

So in about 6 hours, we're leaving for Salisbury. I have mixed emotions about this.

It seems like I've been looking forward to this day since forever, but now that its here, I don't really want to leave. I don't want to have to leave my room, my fish, my dog, my family. I don't want to leave my co-workers, my friends, my life. I know that things will be fine once I get moved in and I get a routine established, but I really don't want to do the "freshman activities" that they have planned for us. I know its a good way to meet people, but I don't know. I guess I'll just play it by ear and see if I'm up to it.

I may not be sure of a lot of things lately, but one thing that I AM sure of, is that I'm sick and tired of hearing, "suck it up" or, "just deal with it." Seriously? Ya think? Is that really the best advice you can give me? Gosh, would have been better off saying nothing at all instead of that crap. I know that some things you just have to "deal" with. But show some compassion, at least pretend to care.

This post has no direction, its more of a stream of consciousness thing. I can't wait until everyone gets down to school, I'll feel a little bit better once my friends show up. And I'm not going to have my car at first, my dad wants to get the transmission looked at and hopefully fixed before I take the car down. We already paid for the spot, so we'll register the car tomorrow, and Brad will drive it down when he comes back to school after Chelen's dance which is somewhere around the 14th.

Well I'm done for tonight, I think I'll start posting every day or so and update on classes and such. Wish me luck tomorrow...Lord knows that I'll need it.

While reading, it struck me...

Matthew 6:14-15 "For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But, if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins."

SDFLSFLKJHSDFKH

Could today have been worse? I'm pretty sure now that I just said that, it will get worse.

Later ya'll.

That Old Piece of Paper...

So earlier I was going through my room, and found an old folded piece of paper from one of my discipleship lessons. The papers is titled, "A Biblical Profile of a Disciple" and I'd like to share it with you:

The Biblical Profile of a Disciple:

1. A disciple is a learner—open and teachable. (Proverbs 9:8-10; Matthew 4:19; John 6:60-66).

2. A disciple puts Christ first in all areas of his/her life. (Matthew 6:9-13, 24, 33; Luke 9:23; John 13:13)

3. A disciple is committed to a life of purity and is taking steps to separate from sin. (1 Corinthians 6:19-20; Ephesians 4:22-5:5; Colossians 3:5-10; 1 Thessalonians 4:3-7; Titus 2:12-14)

4. A disciple has a daily devotional time and is developing in his/her prayer life. (Psalm 27:4; 42:1-2; Mark 1:35; Luke 11:1-4; 1 Thessalonians 5:17-18; James 1:5-7; 5:16)

5. A disciple demonstrates faithfulness and a desire to learn and apply the Word of God through hearing it preached and taught, reading it frequently, Bible study, Scripture memory, and meditation on the Scriptures. (John 8:31; Acts 2:42; 17:11; Colossians 3:16; 2 Timothy 2:15)

6. A disciple has a heart for witnessing, gives his/her testimony clearly, and presents the gospel regularly with increasing skill. (Matthew 28:18-20; Acts 1:8; 5:42; 14:21-23; 22:14-15; Romans 1:16; 1 Corinthians 15:3-4; 1 Thessalonians 2:4)

7. A disciple attends church regularly to worship God, to have his spiritual needs met, and to make a contribution to the body of believers. (Psalm 122:1; Acts 16:5; 1 Corinthians 12:12-27; Colossians 1:15-18; Hebrews 10:25)

8. A disciple fellowships regularly with other believers, displaying love and unity. (John 17:22-26; Acts 2:44-47; 4:31-33; Ephesians 4:1-3; Hebrews 10:24; 1 John 1:1-3)

9. A disciple demonstrates a servant heart by helping others in practical ways. (Mark 10:42-45; Acts 6:1-4; 2 Corinthians 12:15; Philippians 2:25-30; 1 Thessalonians 2:8-9).

10. A disciple gives regularly and honors God with his/her finances. (Haggai 1:6-9; Malachi 3:10-11; 1 Corinthians 16:1-2; 2 Corinthians 8-9; Philemon 14)

11. A disciple demonstrates the fruit of the Spirit by an attractive relationship with Christ and his/her fellow disciples. (Acts 16:1-2; 1 Corinthians 13:4-7; Galatians 5:22-23; 1 Peter 2:18-23; 2 Peter 1:5-8)

After reading that, I realize how far away I am from being a disciple. I mean, I'm not a bad Christian...its just that there are some areas mentioned above that I really need to work on. For example, some of the areas that I know that I need to focus on are:

Number 4) A disciple has a daily devotional time and is developing in his/her prayer life. (Psalm 27:4; 42:1-2; Mark 1:35; Luke 11:1-4; 1 Thessalonians 5:17-18; James 1:5-7; 5:16)

I read my Bible. Do I have a set time that I read it? No. I always think to myself while I'm laying in bed awake at night, "I could use this time to read His word." But then I also think, "Where is my Bible? Oh, its in my car..." or something along those lines. I need to stop finding excuses for things, and just do it. This not only applies to reading His word, but to other areas of my life as well. I always find myself trying to make excuses for others' behavior, "Oh he/she didn't mean that, he/she was just having a bad day." But when things happen over and over, I need to realize that its not just a "bad day".

Anyway, sorta got off topic. lol.

Also I realize that I need to work on number 7:

A disciple attends church regularly to worship God, to have his spiritual needs met, and to make a contribution to the body of believers. (Psalm 122:1; Acts 16:5; 1 Corinthians 12:12-27; Colossians 1:15-18; Hebrews 10:25)

I really need to work on this one. It seems to come back to me making excuses not to go. I really do enjoy going to church, its just that I really hate going alone. I know, it shouldn't be an issue, but it is for me. Its not that its a "social" time or anything, I just like being able to go with someone. And when I don't have anyone to go with, or no one wants to go, I make excuses. I say, "Oh well, I went to discipleship the other night, so its okay." Or I say, "Oh, well I read my Bible every night this past week." Or some other lame excuse.

No one is perfect, I know that. I just want to be able to be at the place where I roughly fit the profile of a disciple.

This is a really random post, but that's just me I guess...

Lets Do This...

So this is my second blog attempt. I had my Xanga blog for the longest time...actually since freshman year of high school, however, I went through periods of using it and then even longer periods of neglecting it. So here's hoping for the former, rather than the latter. I truly blame Caren for this blog, for she is the sole reason for my creating it. But who knows, maybe it'll be good for me to blog here and there. I guess it'll be cool to start this blog thing, and start college at roughly the same time; maybe I'll look back on these blogs and be reminded of the past. Anyway, thats enough for now.