Its gooooood

So things have been looking up lately...well as far as life is concerned, school is still crap. Over the past few days I've learned a lot about myself, and others. I think that going home last weekend really was a good decision b/c it just let me get away from everything going on here and to let things get worked out by the grace of God. Sometimes when we get frustrated at a problem that we just don't know how to fix, we just need to remove ourselves from the situation and leave it to God. This post isn't living up to what I wanted it to be, but that's b/c of time constraints. I have to meet Paul for lunch in 5minutes so I guess I should have waited to do this later. Lol. Oh well. Have an awesome day, I know I plan to : )

Crap

How can I go from being on top of the world, to being mud under someones shoe, in less than a few days time? Unlike many other times, I didn't bring this upon myself. This isn't something I wished for. This isn't something that I planned to happen...it just did. Now, I'm not one who regrets...but I'm a hell of a fan of do-overs. Can I use mine now?

Faith

To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown
Where Jesus is,
And he's holding out his hand

Past

How much energy do we spend on wishing things were how they used to be, thinking that our best days may be behind us? Maybe if we’re too hung up on the past, we fail to live our lives to the fullest, right here, right now.

College

Okay, so I lied about updating everyday. Oh well.

Move-In Day
Friday started off bright and early at 5am as we loaded up the van in the pre-dawn light. We hit up Bob Evans on the way to SU and get to snowy Salisbury around 930am. Now I know that its possible to make the drive in 1hour and 59minutes, but we took our time. Salisbury was covered in about and inch of snow and a 1/4inch of ice, which made maneuvering around the parking lot and in front of the dorms quite interesting. lol. I check in with the RA and am shown to my sweltering hot-box that is my home for the next however many months. I do the whole unpacking thing while my mom cleans the bathrooms and kitchen, and my dad hooks up my computer. We eventually make our way to get my parking permit and then do the welcome ceremony and stuff, my mom says a tearful goodbye and they leave to go home. Everyone new in Chesapeake had to eat with the RAs at dinner, so we do that and I head back to my room and sleep through the other activities of the night.

Day 1
We all had to be in Maggs by something like 9am to do 2 hours of "team-building" activities. While it sounds gay and like a wast of time, it really wasn't that bad. Yea, it was kind of lame, but it was a good way to meet people and such. Variations of the "team-building" went on all day long and ended around 5 for dinner. Again, I didn't go to the activities that night and instead met my roommate and then went to sleep.

Day 2
Everyone came down today!!! First Paul arrived, followed by Caren and then Sarah and Brad. Helped them move in and stuff and then met my other 6 roommates who all seem nice. Got books and such and just did some hanging out.

Day 3
Today was the first day of classes...ugh. lol. Sociology at 8am is going to get old. We have to read some book for that class and do a paper on it. Chemistry is going to kick my butt, I'm already regretting taking that class, but I have to for my major. English is chill, my teacher brought in donuts for us all and we just sat and discussed the class. I had a short break and then went to history. That class should be okay, the teacher seems like a good guy. Chilled the rest of the day and then watched Finding Nemo!!! Best movie ever.

Day 4
Today I only had one class, my STARS Habitat class. Its going to be easy, I think we're going to have some fun in that class. lol. Today I started some Chem homework, but its just so time consuming that I lost focus and went to get food with Brad. I need to get that done, but I have to wait until I can get my books from the the neighbors.

So yea, that's been my life in a nutshell : )

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I'm nervous...really nervous.

Leaving

So in about 6 hours, we're leaving for Salisbury. I have mixed emotions about this.

It seems like I've been looking forward to this day since forever, but now that its here, I don't really want to leave. I don't want to have to leave my room, my fish, my dog, my family. I don't want to leave my co-workers, my friends, my life. I know that things will be fine once I get moved in and I get a routine established, but I really don't want to do the "freshman activities" that they have planned for us. I know its a good way to meet people, but I don't know. I guess I'll just play it by ear and see if I'm up to it.

I may not be sure of a lot of things lately, but one thing that I AM sure of, is that I'm sick and tired of hearing, "suck it up" or, "just deal with it." Seriously? Ya think? Is that really the best advice you can give me? Gosh, would have been better off saying nothing at all instead of that crap. I know that some things you just have to "deal" with. But show some compassion, at least pretend to care.

This post has no direction, its more of a stream of consciousness thing. I can't wait until everyone gets down to school, I'll feel a little bit better once my friends show up. And I'm not going to have my car at first, my dad wants to get the transmission looked at and hopefully fixed before I take the car down. We already paid for the spot, so we'll register the car tomorrow, and Brad will drive it down when he comes back to school after Chelen's dance which is somewhere around the 14th.

Well I'm done for tonight, I think I'll start posting every day or so and update on classes and such. Wish me luck tomorrow...Lord knows that I'll need it.